I'm in a mood right now. And I don't have anyone to talk to. I never have anyone to talk to. I wonder if I'm PMSing... this is my "I don't have any friends, I really hate myself, I want a different life" PMS train of thought. I don't think I'm PMSing though. I guess it's possible.
Anyway, I'm feeling stupid and helpless and just frustrated at work. Everything is up in the air. No one will communicate with me, even when I ask them direct questions. No one keeps me in the loop. And I don't see it getting any better in the near future. I honestly don't see it getting any better in the distant future either. I see it getting much, much worse.
I don't want to be the one to leave a sinking ship. I like my job, and I'm loyal to my manager. But I just don't feel like I can do my job the way it is. And there isn't any way to fix it. I've talked to my manager, and he's just as frustrated and confused as I am. No one seems to pay attention to our department. They were just starting to, and now we're being treated like the red headed step child again.
Migrating accounts without telling us. "Planned maintenance" that you don't tell us about. A new Agile process that Does. Not. Work. for support companies. I feel like we're setting ourselves up to fail, and no one is going to be able to fix it when we do. And no one is going to want to buy us when we do. They're just going to end up shutting us down and walking away.
At best, I think I've got two years to try to make a name for myself in my job. But the name I'm making is "trainer" not "project manager." And that's not my title.
I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I don't have friends. I don't have anything fun to do on weekends that can distract me from it. I really, truly, don't know what to do.
But I'm depressed. I'm not happy with any part of my living situation - personal life, work, or other. And I don't know what to do about it.
I don't know what to do about any of it.
I'm lost. And I need help figuring out where to go from here. But there is no one to help. And I just don't know what to do.
