I only write when I'm depressed. But oh well, it's not like anyone reads this anyway.
Is it wrong to be with someone because you'll be lonely without them? He loves me. I know he does. But I don't think I love him. I'm not sure if I ever really did. Or if I did, I haven't in quite some time. I don't want to be in a relationship anymore. But I don't want to be alone either. I'm not talking about not wanting to be single. And I don't have friends. So if I end things, I'm going to be alone.
I think the guy at work brought this on me. He told me he could give other people a hard time because they were friends, but he doesn't give me a hard time because we're not friends. I know he just meant we aren't that type of friends. We're work friends. But I see Jordan go out day after day and his friends asking him to hang out and I have none of that. When he's out with friends I'm home alone.
I don't want to be completely alone again.
